Maybe i’m too nice to make real money, maybe I got that from my father (maybe whether or not your father is too snake or too angel you’re gonna have issues)
I cry looking at the world trade building (i’m sensitive like that, all the people who get into tech to make the world better for the next generation are)
Being drunk alone is just fine if the cocktail is top shelf and you’re warm like a lizard on the desert heated hot rock version of a chair (they just gave me a blanket too), looking over manhattan (realizing why your new bf on the first date was so distressed over seeing this same view for 60$ each SOBER), and writing feels as satisfying as whatever hot topic shhpeelle you would have delivered to successfully entertain an interesting stranger.
The subway is so warm compared to rooftops. Even in the summer. I’ve conquered heat with hot yoga. I’ve yet to conquer cold. How many more ocean swims will it take?
I rejected a friend today. I don’t want to take care of her. I’m not “crazy like you” i’m just crazy. Is this what guys feel like when they take girls on dates? Weighed down? I’m sure some do. That’s what I imagine he sees me as when he complains that if we went on a trip he’d have to pick everything we do.
If it were to me we’d rent scooters, race. Do something to get us near killed like that, or at least end up in the hospital. Then you’d understand what makes me so hesitant towards suggesting activities.
I know it’s a projection. We’re similar and you don’t want to be. You want me to have all the confidence you don’t have. Give me some time to come down from superlife – really.
New York – thank you for the vision, the numbness that doesn’t even let me pretend I have a past I hold to. The European like streets but lined with 63 story buildings all with amazing water pressure. (Fidi wins)
I’m still a little sorry to all the waiters I had to explain i’m alone to. Why do they have to look so confused? All the emotional labor you’ve had to do hasn’t prepared you to make lonely writer girl feel normal? The baristas get it.
Anthropological Magical Realism 