Androgymore

Black and White Hotel

My dream was creepy in an interesting way. I saw him nervously and convincingly change his face at me, not only expressions, his entire bone structure morphed before my eyes (must be my projections for a self-proclaimed gemini). I screamed, I rarely get shocked anymore but this dream did it. Art seems to be perpetualContinue reading “Black and White Hotel”

My Strange Addiction

The book I loaned him was on the bedside table, what a muse. He’s working back at the hotel and I’m pretending to work in a coffee shop. Give me the strength to lie convincingly. Or please don’t ask why. I don’t want to explain why I have an addiction to being terminated from theseContinue reading “My Strange Addiction”

Ignorism

Let’s talk about “how to with John Wilson ” I really hope this doesn’t spiral into something pointless. Will recommended the show. A normal guy in his thirties wanders New-York and video tapes oddities that he edits into some absurd and hilarious theme for each episode. It’s brilliant in its simplicity. It proves good contentContinue reading “Ignorism”

Saturday in a Hotel Lobby

I wonder what divergent parts of us spread like cancer but do no harm or no good I’ve earned some sort of badge of honor that says I a have value to the someone who still believes a partner’s value can be quantified by something tangible I rather be addicted to dominoes than addicted toContinue reading “Saturday in a Hotel Lobby”

Rushing Frats

As a social experiment, I once tried rushing fraternities. I did the sororities, as I guessed I had little in common with them. I grew up abused the way boys are typically abused. I was pressured into activities that are based in science and athleticism, pulled away from the arts, classic corporal, etc. This homeContinue reading “Rushing Frats”

Can’t Sleep, Let’s Chat about Entertainment

I have about one thousand notes, documents, letters, scattered about my various devices and clouds. I used to keep it all in the same place, but in exchange for spontaneity I let my digital hygiene go. Let’s Review Selling Sunset Selling Sunset kills Bling Empire. I could never be that happy all the time. IContinue reading “Can’t Sleep, Let’s Chat about Entertainment”

My Nails are Pretty

I hurt my thumb about a year ago and got two consecutive cortisone shots. That fixed the issue for 6 months or so but now my tendon burns when I move it. Deep down I know the cortisone shots dissolved part of my tendon but my doctor is going to confirm the issue this Wednesday.Continue reading “My Nails are Pretty”

Finding Conclusions

At my first company I had no friends on one did, not really. We were too nerdy to have normal friends, easily bored and all the socially inept engineer cliches. So we were shy as fuck, but I knew from experimentally proven data that authenticity is contagious – so began my strategy in rounding upContinue reading “Finding Conclusions”

Proof

My whole life os about proving my life, my resume, my income, my social media, my notebooks. Have I lived outside the proofs? Is this obsession that sneaks into every corner of my self a result of a desire to immortalize, amplify myself, or have defense when candid interactions fail? I’m breaking it.

Unlearning Through Extreme Devotion to a Strange Lifestyle

Be thin That is the answer to all your problems my parents seemed to convey as they destroyed our family. Be thin as I watched the infrastructure fall, lights flicker out, pictures burn. And for some reason being thin was difficult. Way more than as an only priority than it is as one of many.Continue reading “Unlearning Through Extreme Devotion to a Strange Lifestyle”