Androgymore

The first humiliating steps

Hmmm, writing out my feelings has gotten old. Spectacular alien landscapes is old, splattering makeup in the right locations – amusing but it doesn’t attract your soulmate any better than your normal face could. Eek. Lists are a highschooler’s writing tool. My sentences fall flat. He wanted me to try, walk up to people andContinue reading “The first humiliating steps”

I don’t want this

Whenever something becomes a chore I can’t do it anymore… There is no formula, not to this, to a career, to love, to hope, to running away, to getting over it… so just go at it. The beginning will probably be an ugly mess. A cringy humiliating waste

Fine Art

I don’t know why I forced this but once I force something it uncorks a river and I can then work with that medium relatively freely after that. Forcing things isn’t all bad and it’s usually inspired by love or the searing flame of negative emotions as a result of having nothing to love, (theContinue reading “Fine Art”

In An Effort to Post Regularly

You went way too hard, with the games, the proving of yourself. The analysis of dance – the conclusions I found over the futility of learning to point toes and kick with straight legs. Dance is only useful when the movements can double as fighting techniques. Out in the pits of human interaction I noticeContinue reading “In An Effort to Post Regularly”

Digressions

I used to dip my brush into a poet’s words. How do I explain everything that entails? I was hiding behind the romantic depictions of my past. The romantic language from this makes me sick – “I said that?” – it’s a symptom of some mental ailment, of being lost in a city I didn’tContinue reading “Digressions”

Notes on “Intimations” by Zadie smith and “Starmaker” – Olaf Stapledon

We’re a “don’t pick at things, you’ll make it worse” family my eye hurts. I ignore pain. I omit most of myself from you. go away, but don’t I shouldn’t have erased the annotations in ‘star maker”, I don’t remember what I wrote. The read was more than I expected. I tore “death note” apartContinue reading “Notes on “Intimations” by Zadie smith and “Starmaker” – Olaf Stapledon”

Notes on Hang Gliding

I am bored, I dream of flying, and soon I’m bored of it. The sky has its flaws, the wind is aggressive, up in the air it seems to be effortless, but they look at you like you’re crazy if you want to do it in the rain, or at night. On launch and landContinue reading “Notes on Hang Gliding”

Late One Breakup

I don’t believe in fairy tales, and me asking you to get drinks after not talking for 4 weeks is as disappointing to you as the blood in the toilet is to me, that primitive stupid part of biology, the part I have to perpetually hide and live with, and I don’t want it andContinue reading “Late One Breakup”

Painting Notes

Cryptic Tip 1 – if you want a pop out look paint on the porous material add grain and pour over and blend on a large scale Phycological Tip 2 – the reason that painting doesn’t wow is because its depth isn’t there, you get tired doing the details and the paint dries out wayContinue reading “Painting Notes”

Collette was cotton candy

She lived with her parents as most children do. Beinnnieeie babies all over her wall I was in her world, I slept at it, it was like traveling to another country I hate what wordpress has done Having to keep everything in one place, like a gallery, a world I can take you to whereContinue reading “Collette was cotton candy”